I will be the first to admit that I am an extremely flawed person. I am broken. And in a way I am proud to be flawed and broken, because I know that it is beyond me to fix all the imperfections. God is the only Repairer of Brokenness. Without staring at and sitting among all the bleak and broken pieces of my life, I would miss the beautiful tapestry that God makes with all the pieces. And let me tell you, He makes beauty out of every broken thing.
When I was fifteen years old, God showed me that He had a beautiful story waiting for me. He asked me if I was willing to let Him collect all the broken fragments of my life and turn them into a wondrous, one-of-a-kind piece of art. And that meant facing what all those broken pieces stood for and allowing Him to heal them. To redeem them. And it was not a process that happened overnight. It is something that I am still living out, each and every day. He was asking me if I was ready to let Him create beauty in my life. He pursued me. Courted me. Cherished me. Loved me. How could I say no?
Of course, allowing God to create beauty in your life means He’s going to strip you bare. He’s going to prune all the dead and dying branches off the vine. And that doesn’t come without cuts and scrapes and scars. But it’s what He does with those cuts and scrapes and scars that makes all the difference in the world. He doesn’t just mend them, He redeems them.
God extended an invitation to me when I was fifteen. He asked me if I was ready for Him to come in, to take the reigns, to strip me of the dead branches, and to allow Him to weave a beautiful tapestry with all the broken fragments I had collected over the years. He asked me if I was ready for Him to write my legacy.
It has been my dream since I was a little girl to leave a legacy behind. To leave my mark on something, to know that I have made a difference, to know that my life means something. And this is what I have to offer–the pieces of my life that God has reshaped, remolded, and purified. I will leave behind me a legacy of truth, of honest suffering, and beauty. I want to be remembered for what God has done and is doing through me. I want to be remembered for the beauty that my God created. I want to leave a legacy.
A song that I have loved for years has been Nichole Nordeman’s “Legacy.” It has been my personal anthem at different periods in my life. I can hear the yearning of my heart in the words of her song, the desire to live a life pleasing to God, and a hope to make even a small difference for Him.